conversations with my girlfriend

Girlfriend X Freaks out and Leaves - September 2002:

Girlfriend X is going through immense pain in her body. She is somewhat frightened of the
transmissions coming through her. She's doubting everything, especially the relationship with
me. There is a fire in the hills near our apartment. She takes it symbolically. The next day she
jumps in her car and drives off, eventually ending up in Atlanta where her Aunt has offered her a
place to stay. After two weeks at her Aunt's house, she has a breakdown and is taken to the
hospital where she is diagnosed as bi-polar and put on a regimen of psychotropics.

Meanwhile, I get very depressed. I couldn't believe she didn't see the importance of what was
coming through her. I moved out of our apartment and into my RV. I had all the tapes of the
transmissions but I had not transcribed them yet. I considered throwing them away and ending
this chapter in my life. But I started to transcribe the first tape. As I entered into this process. I
felt my energy shift and my depression went away momentarily. The past 6 months seemed like
a dream but transcribing the tapes put me in touch with the reality of it. It happened. The
miracles were real. My sister was alive.

I called Girlfriend X and she was aloof and even scared of me. She didn't want to be connected.

"There is intense internal trauma and doubt surfacing inside of this instrument.
She has reservations as to the nature of the work that is being presented to her."